Prologue: Forgotten Conjunctures -- Clearing a Space : History's Winners and their Illusions -- Loving Oneself Through Others : Progress and its Contradictions -- Losing My Religion : Islam, Secularism and Revolution -- Regaining My Religion : I. Nationalism Unbound; I I. Messianic Visions -- Finding True Freedom and Equality : The Heritage of Nihilism -- Epilogue: Finding Reality